A Diva's Simple Moments

The current mood of starshadows@gmx.net at www.imood.com

About Me:
Age: 30 (31 in 2 weeks)
Status: Married
Rugrats: 4
Sanity: Nope
Home: MI

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Do you know I am still trying to figure this web blog out?? I think I am going to redesign it and give it a new look.. This look is already stale to me.. I need to get links on my page and organize it bit..

I do have good news though.. I just sent in money to my credit card for my domain!!! Woohoo!! I can't wait!! I'm thinking of going with DLTGraphics.com, but I'm still torn on the where.. Blue Domino or No Monthly Fees.. I really liked that Blue Domino offered unlimited space and unlimited Bandwidth and all the free software, but it is still new and I would hate to sign up for a year and have them decided to shut down.. No Monthly Fees has been around awhile and if they have any bugs, I'm sure they are out by now.. Decisions.. Decisions.. Now I need to sit down and come up with a cover page for it.. I want to combine all my sites by making a splash page that incorperates both looks.. I think today is going to be for me.. No SGM, no COS, no mail.. Just me and my psp..

I also need to learn to ftp!!! How could I have not learned how to do that yet?? I tried using mine a few weeks ago and couldn't figure it out.. I can teach myself Flash and learn Dreamweaver and yet I can't ftp.. Geeezzz.. Well, it can't be too hard.. I will just have to sit down and not get up until I know how to do it.. *L*

Off to do some house work.. BBL...

Okay.. Been a while.. Sue me.. *L* Not that anyone actually reads this thing anyways..

Do you ever have a moment when you realize that people don't know you?? Not just any "people", but people that should by now..There are days I feel like I am forever defending myself and the things that I want to do.. But to realize that the people you are defending yourself against really don't know you makes you wonder why you even bother..

The hot topic tonight, at least in my head, is what I want to do with my graphics.. Do be a designer or not to be a designer..*L* I came to the realization, I don't have what it takes to do that..When you go tot a business site what do you see?? I see plain, ugly, flat, no pizzazz websites.. Yes, I know that is the way they are suppose to be.. *L* But why? I can't do those kinds of sites.. I have to have texture, depth, sparkles.. *L* I like sites that reach out and grab me and pull me in, those sites make me want to run for cover.. I think I may just do what I am doing and sell sets. I think that would make me happier.. And I must be happy.. *L*

Another thought was site critiquing.. If someone asks you an opinion, do you be honest or do you let them have it?? Or do you say the hell with site critiquing.. *EG* To hell with it.. I guess I just don't care what others think of my site.. My site has always been for me and for no one else. I place I can forget myself in.. That's why I originally named it the Retreat.. That's what it is to me.. If I never had another hit, it wouldn't bother me, I would still update it and recreate it when the urge hit..

Well, I probably came off as bitchy tonight, that's cuz I am.. *L* Just been a long day..*S*

The best thing about being a woman
Is the prerogative to have a little fun and...
Oh, oh, oh, go totally crazy--forget I'm a lady
Men's shirts--short skirts
Oh, oh, oh, really go wild--yeah, doin' it in style
Oh, oh, oh, get in the action--feel the attraction
Color my hair--do what I dare
Oh, oh, oh, I wanna be free--yeah, to feel the way I feel
Man! I feel like a woman!
~Shania Twain

The calanders are lying to us.. Today is Monday!!! It sure feels like a Monday.. *L*

I joined a new group called Circle of Style. So far everyone seems really nice.. I really needed to do something new. But I did something I told myself I wouldn't do.. I submitted my graphics site instead of my homepage.. Why did I do that? I like the graphics on my page and I don't think there is anything wrong with them.. So what if I am using a half naked lady.. I like her, and I love the new set, yet I didn't submit it.. I could really kick myself for not following through. I think it comes from that fear of not being liked. Not sure where all these insecurites I have, come from. Sometimes I feel like I have lost a part of myself. Something is missing that makes me a whole person. It really is hard to explain, but there is something missing my life, and just can't figure out what it is.

I bought some new stationary.. Now isn't this girl cute???

She reminds me of my new Diva..

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